catching up on the news

Linette and I made a test run to the hospital this evening. Not counting the time we were stopped, eating pizza, it took about 20 minutes Then, we came home and dove head-first into nesting again. Tonight, its the kitchen. If the babys room didnt have the giant, orange POISON sign outside of it, Im sure wed be in there. But, as the lead contamination team still isnt done, weve settled for cleaning the fridge, rearranging the spices, and reorganizing the Tupperware So, I just decided to take an hour or so off and catch up on the news… This, in case youre interested, is what I found.

First, theres a new Paul Krugman piece in the New York Times. Its a continuation of the Ashcroft is the worst Attorney General in the history of this country theme that Krugman kicked off last week. In this chapter, we see Ashcroft trumpeting the capture of a Muslim would-be mall bomber (even though he was actually caught a while ago and had no bombs), while keeping mysteriously quiet about an American white supremacist caught with a massive stockpile of weapons. Heres a quote from Krugman:

In April 2003, John Ashcroft’s Justice Department disrupted what appears to have been a horrifying terrorist plot. In the small town of Noonday, Tex., F.B.I. agents discovered a weapons cache containing fully automatic machine guns, remote-controlled explosive devices disguised as briefcases, 60 pipe bombs and a chemical weapon a cyanide bomb big enough to kill everyone in a 30,000-square-foot building.

Strangely, though, the attorney general didn’t call a press conference to announce the discovery of the weapons cache, or the arrest of William Krar, its owner. He didn’t even issue a press release. This was, to say the least, out of character. Jose Padilla, the accused “dirty bomber,” didn’t have any bomb-making material or even a plausible way to acquire such material, yet Mr. Ashcroft put him on front pages around the world. Mr. Krar was caught with an actual chemical bomb, yet Mr. Ashcroft acted as if nothing had happened.

Mr. Krar’s arrest was the result not of a determined law enforcement effort against domestic terrorists, but of a fluke: when he sent a package containing counterfeit U.N. and Defense Intelligence Agency credentials to an associate in New Jersey, it was delivered to the wrong address. Luckily, the recipient opened the package and contacted the F.B.I. But for that fluke, we might well have found ourselves facing another Oklahoma City-type atrocity.

So, if you believe Krugman (as I tend to do), our Attorney General is following a script that calls for evil middle eastern men to be paraded in front of the press while downplaying the possibility of domestic terrorism, like that which we saw in Oklahoma City. I guess thats something that a lot of us have suspected, but its interesting to see the two cases, those of Krar and Padilla, held up side by side. Clearly one was pushed on the media while the other, which appears to have been a great deal more dangerous, was kept quiet. One has to wonder why. My guess is that the war in Iraq has a lot to do with it.

And here, in case youre still interested in reading, is a new article by Seymour Hersh. This one is primarily about Iran and Israel and the roles those two countries are now playing in Iraq Its Hershs contention that Israel has lost hope that the US will ever be able to turn Iraq around. And, with that in mind, theyve decided to implement their Plan B the covert support of Iraqi Kurds. (Something which, by the way, complicates things exponentially for us in the region.) Heres a quote from Hersh:

Israeli intelligence and military operatives are now quietly at work in Kurdistan, providing training for Kurdish commando units and, most important in Israels view, running cover operations inside Kurdish areas of Iran and Syria. Israel feels particularly threatened by Iran, whose position in the region has been strengthened by the war. The Israeli operative include members of the Mossad, Israels clandestine foreigh-intelligence service, who work undercover in Kurdistan as businessmen and, in some cases, do not carry Israeli passports.

And, lastly, heres a piece by Christopher Hitchens on the lies of Michael Moore. Im still going to see Fahrenheit 9/11 the day it opens, but its worth noting the concerns of Hitchens, many of which seem legitimate. Heres a clip:

He prefers leaden sarcasm to irony and, indeed, may not appreciate the distinction. In a long and paranoid (and tedious) section at the opening of the film, he makes heavy innuendoes about the flights that took members of the Bin Laden family out of the country after Sept. 11. I banged on about this myself at the time and wrote a Nation column drawing attention to the groveling Larry King interview with the insufferable Prince Bandar, which Moore excerpts. However, recent developments have not been kind to our Mike. In the interval between Moore’s triumph at Cannes and the release of the film in the United States, the 9/11 commission has found nothing to complain of in the timing or arrangement of the flights. And Richard Clarke, Bush’s former chief of counterterrorism, has come forward to say that he, and he alone, took the responsibility for authorizing those Saudi departures. This might not matter so much to the ethos of Fahrenheit 9/11, except thatas you might expectClarke is presented throughout as the brow-furrowed ethical hero of the entire post-9/11 moment. And it does not seem very likely that, in his open admission about the Bin Laden family evacuation, Clarke is taking a fall, or a spear in the chest, for the Bush administration. So, that’s another bust for this windy and bloated cinematic “key to all mythologies.”

You be the judge. I have a moldy kitchen sink to attend to.

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ocd snobbery

I got pissed off at the gym today, as I was sitting there on the exercise bike, emitting my new fragrance and reading a sticky, old issue of Newsweek. There was an article in it by a woman who, after giving birth to her son, started having OCD-like symptoms, and it got me all fired up. Heres a quote from the article (which I ripped out of the sweat-soaked magazine and stuffed into my sock before leaving):

When my son was between 5 and 7 weeks old, it really hit me. One night while burping him with a burp cloth I wondered what would happen if I smothered him with it I began to have even more such thoughts, and I became extremely frightened. I though about dropping him the stairs. Or accidentally drowning him in the bathtub. Id shake my head and think, I know Id never hurt him. Whats wrong with me?

Fortunately, she got diagnosed with postpartum obsessive-compulsive disorder relatively quickly, started seeing a therapist, and went on medication. And now, everythings apparently just fine.

I feel stupid for being pissed, but I am. This woman lived for a few weeks with something that Ive dealt with my entire life and she writes a story about her ordeal. I dont want to get into the specifics, but intrusive thoughts concerning violent acts are something that a lot of us with OCD deal with daily, even hourly. Once, I met a woman in a group therapy setting, who was so troubled by the graphic thoughts she had of murdering her parents and siblings, that she moved away from home without telling them where she was going. It literally gets that bad, and medication and therapy dont work for everyone. The woman that I mentioned, by the time I had met her, had been diagnosed with OCD and she knew that just because she had these thoughts didnt mean that she was going to act on them. She knew that, but she still didnt contact her family. And the medications didnt stop that.

I feel like the author of this piece in Newsweek got off at my bus stop by accident, was stranded there for a little while, and now thinks that shes entitled to write about the horror of it all as though its her story to tell.

I know its wrong to think this way and Im embarrassed. The article was good, and it might actually help people who are suffering from this form of the disease. I know thats a good thing, and I appreciate the author taking the time to share it. I cant, however, help but feel this inner anger, like Im a black guy watching a documentary about a white sociologist who wore blackface for a week and then proceeded to write a book about discrimination. I guess theres a kind of elitism when it comes to mental illness, the same way there is with everything else.

The woman who wrote this Newsweek piece, by the way, has been spending her time as of late lobbying congress to invest in mental illness research. Meanwhile, Im sitting here, the OCD snob, wasting my time on Omarosas new site, wondering if anyone would pay $3.95 a minute to hear me discuss my delusions of grandeur.

On the subject of OCD, my friend Kez Panel (a fellow traveler in the world of obsession), just wrote to tell me that theres a big OC Foundation conference at the end of July in Chicago. As part of the event, theyre having a judged art show, and Im thinking about entering something. (The grand prize is $1,000… which would buy a hell of a lot of moist towelettes.) If the baby werent coming in July, I might have even considered going to the event. The line-up of speakers and topics looks good. Plus, I think it would just be interesting to wander around the Hyatt with a thousand other people who are also afraid of touching contaminated surfaces Id love to see surveillance tapes from the elevators Can someone please arrange that?

Kez also, in his note, told me about the human clock.

Kez is good about telling me things.

So, the OC Foundation art show is another thing that Im adding to this weeks to-do list. Ive got to think of something really obsessive. The competition is going to be fierce. Im sure that the woman who creates things from dryer lint will be there, and that OC performance artist who just stands there, obsessively popping bubble wrap bubbles. This is like the best of the best. This is my Olympics. Wish me luck.

Oh, I didnt mention it earlier, but my comic for the next issue of the Ann Arbor Paper has to do with my violent intrusive thoughts concerning my wife and our baby. I just submitted it last night Its really weird that I should see that article, entitled I Was Scared I Might Hurt My Baby, today of all days.

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huhnars wardrobe grows

This weekend, Huhnar received his first gift from an MM.com reader. The sender wished to remain anonymous. The gift was an eye-patch. Heres the note that came with it, and a couple of photos that I just snapped of Huhnar sporting his new accessory. I think it looks pretty cool, in a Snake Plissken kind of a way… Thank you to whoever sent it. You’ve renewed my faith in the readers of this little, stupid on-line journal.

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sourdough starter

A friend of ours from New York (Natalie Schulhofer) is looking for information on the old Sourdough Bakery on River Street. So far, shes been able to find out a few things, but Im sure somebody out there knows more. So, if you can, please let me know what youve heard. (The woman who, until recently, ran the place has apparently passed away and our friend is wondering what will become of the space. Theres even a chance that shed like to somehow be involved in keeping it going.) Heres what we do know This is from our friends last note:

i found more information about the place from a bread book. it was started as a non-profit bakery by a baker from the wildflour bakery in ann arbor with money from a good-bread advocacy/awareness association(!). tom did everything himself for a while. he used to make three kinds of bread but eventually expanded the variety. losing money, he was able to negotiate cheaper rent because it is in the historic district and the bakery meets an “appropriate use” stipulation which i guess allows the landlords leeway leasing the other spaces. so he continued. when it got to be too much for him to handle on his own, tom sold the place to three people who continued in the same vein. they have a grain mill there as well as the wood-fired oven. the new owners held bread demos at stores to educate people about wholegrain, naturally leavened breads. the story ends there, in 1999, when the book was published. i don’t know when the woman came into the picture. the co-op owns the space now (did i learn that from hillary?). i would really like to know what will happen to it. more than that, i would like to be a part of the effort to carry on what was begun.

do you think you could make some further inquiries at the co-op? i wonder who in particular manages it and what that person is looking to do. this is a very rare kind of place. i have heard about wildflour from others too and am sure you are right, that there are still bakers around from there who might be willing to teach.

(note: The legendary Wildflower Community Bakery in Ann Arbor closed its doors about five years ago, after something like a 30-year run.)

So, if you know any more about the history of the bakery, the plans for the future now that the woman who ran it (who was a very nice lady, by the way) has passed on, or anything about the operation of the oven, the breads baked, etc, please leave a comment or send me an email with your contact information. Thank you very much.

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pray for reason

Neal Pollack announces the launch of Pray for Reason, a site dedicated to spreading the message that a lunatic Christian cult has the run of the White House, the ear of the president, and a lust for Armageddon. Here are a few quotes from Mr. Pollacks opening salvo as printed in The Stranger:

Writers for alternative newspapers on the West Coast generally aren’t prone to making hyperbolic, paranoid statements, but I’ll smash the mold: Our country is being run by a lunatic Christian cult

Last weekend, the Texas Republican party approved a platform that refers to the “myth of the separation of church and state,” and proclaimed America a “Christian nation.” The platform also declares that the Ten Commandments are “the basis of our Freedoms.”

As Mr. Pollack says, Be afraid.

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